I did not get the job... I did well but just got 'beat out' by a guy w more specific experience. I was REALLY looking forward to leaving. having some time off and finding some SOCIAL contact or friends. I will start looking at church or activity groups to get out there..meet up. biking etc..my church recently moved and I am involved but not the extent I would like
Continue to be bothered daily by 'the guy I am seeing'.. just feeling stalled in LIFE.. sortof like I wake up with out any goals.. as you can see I am REALLY STRUGGLING right now.
I lost the ability to search my email (yahoo..known bug) so am rebuilding my email account from scratch (takes days) and as old notes come up I sometimes read them and see how I was years ago.. happy and sad.. interesting. little melancholy. gets me thinking..I read a note from 2006 when I was just starting the downhill slide and WOW.. the stress radiated right out of the email.
Finally reached old and new property managers.. everything is a go and we start today on the transition. Stressed w how that is goign to go with this late transition and new property manager asked if I wanted to wait a month. I told her I am going to change over anyhow so lets get it over with. Not sure how much cooperation I will get from the old PM
I put my job search on hold short term whille I waited for this job.,. will start again. Last job interview was $63.. first one was $65..I make $55/hr now. I will continue to target $63/65 an hour.
Onward but SERIOUSLY need to get some motivation and drive.. just 'slogging along' here.
Did not get job-feeling down